the boy's journey.. (part 1)

22 years ago, tuesday morning, a boy was borned in a small midwife clinic in a small town in southern west java district. the boy had penis, haa that why people called the baby a boy. The boy was in healthy condition, not a big or small one, just average one. Was his life will be average too ? hmm let's see.

5 months after, the boy grew up. He and his family then moved to nothern one to capital city of west java district for a better life. In this place, they spent only a one-to-two months before heading west to another island. Palembang, south sumatera was the place they heading. Life would be better in here, as his father said. In this city, the boy and his family started their life.

The boy started with a T which mean tough, but appearently he is not. T stands for treasure ? what kind of treasure. lost treasure yes perhaps. T stands for .. hmm he dont know either. ah not yet not dont know. Okay, the boy started his life in misery of sickness and loneliness from outside. He was hospitalized when he was 2 years because of some problems in his bowel. His bowel was coiled. He couldnt poop for a one and half week made his stomach swelled up. Few more days of not poop, he would be die. He went to operation to straighten the coiled-bowel. If operation succeed, he might survive, but in the contrary he might be gone forever. Appearently, God was good to him, few hours before bowel-operation, his stomach was defleated, and all poops and stuff was out. He survived. 1 - 0 as that day.

Sickness and illness seems like a friend for a boy. He went to hospital again regularly, because of thypoid. Because of this, the boy grew up differently, compare to other boys there. He was skinny, small, and weak. Yes weak and spoiled. A few years after, the boy continued his life. He attended pre-school, then primary school, secondary school, and high school in this pempek city. He was shy, to shy to speak, communicate, even interact with people around. He was the silent student in his school, considered a nerd. But his silent was deathly, why ? he got #1 rank since 1st grade till secondary school, not always but mostly he never got rank below #4. He was awesome. yes he knew that time. 

In friendship ? ah he was so shy as we know, so that he had a couple friend only. All of his fingers hand to toes were good enough to count how many friend he got that time. He was weak, he got low score in sport. everytime he pushed himself to be good at sport, he couldnt, cause he was weak. He thought he might be dead then if he pushed himself. Ah yes he was clever, he knew his weekness since early age.

When other boys went out, playing football, or hide-n-seek, the boy just went to his 'kersen' tree, climbed up to the top, and enjoyed himself seeing airplane landing/takeoff cause his house was close to palembang's airport. He used to do this things everyday, until his mighty tree was copped down. He also had a lovely imaginary friend namely lana, which always accompanied him every day till night. He felt so happy having friend like lana. He spent primary school stage by being alone, far from society, and finding his comfort zone. haa how weird he was. he was just 10 years old.

Secondary high was probably his best stage ever. Why ? he was widely opened to people, compare to his primary school. The boy joined school-body, became member of art organization, and school-scout. For him, this was too much, but yeah he wanted to challenge himself that time. In this stage, he still had problem with sport, and math. ah how terrible he was in math. He was good in english, probably one of the best english speech that time. Eventhough he had a lot of organizational things to do, he still kept up his rank. He was more social, many people knew him, and he knew people knew him some in bad ways and some in good ways. He had a lot of friends also. He had couple of best friends, yeah more than he had before, close to all fingers he got. Yay he was happy.

Secondary high, best stage of his life, All this social life things was over then, some months before the national final exam, right after he got the worst experience ever that he wouldnt forget until now. What ? he lost his best friend, and almost lost his other best friend. His two best friend got accident when school art club was going to perform. Back, a couple week before the show, the boy was selected to join the club to perform, but he refused because school had some event in the same time (pensi stuff), and the boy was one of core comittee. He then asked his best friend, namely (alm) D to replace him. (alm) D refused that time, but the boy insisted, then (alm) D agreed to replace him. the day of accident, the boy was busy managing stuff, when he overheard what his teacher gossiping, two students got accident, one died. The boy had no idea who were the students they talked about, until he got a call from a teacher, a teacher wanted the boy to accompany him to hospital. 

They went to hospital, the boy still had no idea until he saw a face he noticed in body bag, his face was very handsome and sparkle, but his body was full of scratch and blood. He shocked now. the boy shocked, he saw his bestfriend there, (alm) D. He walked slowly approaching the dead body. He hardly breathed. he walked so slow made a snail won the race. Before he could touch the body, he was distracted by a call. a call of help. a call of pain. a call of his name. He turned his head, and saw his another best friend calling him. The boy approached her. She touched his hand and cried. The boy was shocked for the second times. He couldnt cry, he didnt know why. he couldnt speak, his mouth was locked, and he forgot the key. He saw his beautiful friend in a mess. Full of scratches, blood, and he saw the legs. oh god.... then he couldnt feel her touch, she collapsed, just collapsed not died. Secondary high, best stage of his life, in way home home he was shocked, triple shocked. He slapped himself, thinking this wasnot a dream, of course it was not. He just lost a friend, and almost lost another. Geez, what he did wrong. did he do wrong ? tell him.

He saw his mother was busy gussy-up. the mother used a black dress, a veil, a bag of rice. she saw his boy home. the mother hugged, and thanked god it was his boy. then the mother went out, going to (alm) D's house, which located close to the boy's house. the boy changed his clothes, and went to (alm) D's house. A white big house, a lot plastic chairs place nicely, a lot of people gathered around, some read alquran and some cried. Yeah that's the (alm) D's house situation that time. the boy was a fews feet from the door. He couldnt step inside. He was blamed himself because of this. (alm) D shouldnot be dead, he should. He should. He should. the boy should. Once he entered the front house, when the boy and (alm) d and many of his friends used to play games here, he was shouted. Shouted by other of his friends. "You should die not him", they shouted. The boy stared to other of his friend. He couldnt speak any of words, eventhough his head already stringed up the words. "Sorry" then he spoke. He stared to all of his friends which looked angry and left.

After the accident, the boy feel so guilty. Everyday as he could, he went to hospital, met his other friend which already conscious. he sweared to himself to take care of her. Yes he did. Once she was better, she had to use a stick to walk, and the boy helped her walk everyday. Other people said the boy was pretending, to make the boy look good to others. but he wasnot. no pretending, just paying off the life (alm) D gave.  Yup he won again. 2 - 0 for his winning. he really should thank God this time.

Secondary high, best stage of his life, appearently he was taking himself too high so he could handle all pressures and bad comments of others. Secondary high, best stage of his life, the boy knew that he was very sensitive with comments. He hated it, and he sweared himself to be a person of what other people wanted him to be, rather than be the one he wanted to be. He stopped socializing to people, he then become what he used to be .. an aloof. Secondary high, best stage of his life, the best cause he had a lot of experiences he havent get yet.

.. to be continued ...